Come, Come Here

Shame is begun in the old days
It's hard to find, but say what you wanted to say
I am lost
Still it rains in these hard days
I am lost
In the greatness of memories
Move and let me be
Move and let me be
I raise up my fire till I am locked
Erase my vices, was I less?

I only came for the past phase
You watched as we faded into the...
Like these words
Seem to me to fall back around
Like the world
Seems to me to fall back around
I found my cause, it came underground
I fought my savior to come around

Tonight, tonight I found all the sounds
Tonight, tonight I found all the signs
Tonight, tonight I find the silence  

I find the road waits for no one
Just like the tide waits for no man
Will time wait for this woman?
Should I wait underground

I only know my way when I close my eyes
And feel with my hands through the cold darkness
I know I’ll hit the ground
But I’ll keep on falling until I’m found
You say there’s something ‘wrong’ with you, but I don’t care
I take you as you are
Come, come here

 

Don't You Let Me Let You Go (inspired by Bombay Bicycle Club same titled song)

It's all the same
The way you explain a chain reaction taking place
You leave me out in the pouring rain
Two reactions: take the blame or go insane

I don't recognise it and I don't reprimand it
I don't make play with you
And I don't play games with you

Will you hide in the car? 
For the one night that I am here?
Take it off first, lay it down

I was ready to leave you and I was ready to go
I was ready to put my heart down in innocence
In innocence
Innocence

I find through all of this 'simple' waiting 
After all of this waiting
The same things I do
The same things I do

I was ready to loath it
I was ready to be this way
I was ready to load it
Until you tell me
Until you tell me
Until you tell me

Oh no, don't you let me let you go

In a pocket on the fires edge
I take my rest
Who's responsible for a lot of this?
I'd say you are

I mustn't forget
I mustn't forget
I mustn't forget
What a fucking mess you made of it
What a fucking mess you've made of this

I am anger
I am everything you imagined
I am all of the somethings
To make it sweeter
To make it awful
To make it awkward

Oh no, don't you let me le you go

In a crack inside an enemy
We were born
And we came across so quietly
As we were reformed
But I won't forget all the silent creatures who crept around the lighting and kept all memories of us apart


 

Saving (co-written with Roberto Andres)

I forgot I'm not suppose to speak

And I forgot I am supposed to be weak

I get stronger when you shut your mouth

I can see that yet I'm still holding back

I am lighter when I am by myself

I could just leave here but I can't break the chain

I forgot I'm not suppose to speak


I'm saving like all the rest

And trying to do my best

I hide my nose behind my scarf

I need to see all this through

From the way we are to the way we'll become

I've decided to step down while jumping in


You wrote me down this way

But in time, those words decay

And out of scattered letters, we'll find the way

Don't need to be validated to soon


 

Falling Faster

I am falling faster than you could have imagined

Now it's coming in to view

Coming in to view

Coming in to view


Neon signs lights up like the moon

Bargain sparks fly setting the whole thing into ruins

Into ruin

Into ruins

Into ruin

I can see that we weren't expecting it not to rain


I am like the forest

Find it hard to find my breath

Taking up the foliage

Lay it abundantly on my breast
Blossom blooms with nature

Hiding out from all the mess

As the water rises

And the fire burns our breath


We could go back to the old track
We could go back to the old track

 
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Stay Where You Are, But
Change is The Only Thing That Remains

(If I) only get love

When I beg

Weigh it up

High on the edge


Bathe in your sins

Hide on the firing line

Oh dear

Can't save you fire

Hold it up

Lightning both sides

Holding up

Weighing onto your core

Leaving

Hide on the edge

 
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Indifference Through Silence
I am silent, I am wrong

I faced you like I could go on

But I'm stuck inside this iron maiden

I failed just like I could have won

I am like a haunted tome

Falling off and on the road

I am a like a loaded gun

Going off on the final round

(I'm) Lost within your silence 
(I'm) Lost within your silence 

(It's) Dead within the silence
(I'm) Dead within the silence

'The opposite of love is not hate, it is indifference.'

 
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A Rip In The Understanding Of The Universe
Even when the body is broken

And the mind is cracked at the seams

I step forwards with my arms open

And search for you to ask you to come


I take all of the wires to rearrange

The sirens in my mind sounding loud again

I swim against the noises that sound all night

Can we hide beneath the covers


Our reflection weakens

It blurs to remind us

We turned away, returned to a different world

I stepped so far beyond you

I lost you behind me

But I can't turn back

I've gone too far 

 

So Inviting
Only in lightening
I find myself
Only in lightening

Only in lightening
I find myself
Only in lightening

Only in lightening
You find yourself
Only in lightening
You find all yourself

You're so inviting
The light's on us is
So inviting
It's so inviting
This light on us
Is so inviting
I can't describe it
It's so inviting
I can't describe it

You failed to become what I wanted you to be
You failed to become
You failed to become what I needed you to be

You failed to become


I pushed you hard and waited for it

I pushed you hard

I pushed you hard

And I waited for it to come

I waited for it to come

I waited for it to come


I failed to become what you wanted me to be

I failed to become

I failed to become what you needed me to be

I failed to become


You pushed me away but I can't step back

You pushed me away so far

You pushed me away but I can't reside myself to it

No I can't reside myself

I can't reside myself


It's so inviting I can not fight it

So inviting I can not fight it

It's so inviting I can't find myself again

I can't find myself

No I can't find myself

Hide inside

You find

It's so damn light

But you're so unkind to yourself

I am light

You fool yourself

You're so light

You find yourself

And hold on to it

Brought into being

We hardly ever spoke of it again

It's so inviting

That you're so damn lost

I recognise it all to well

 

Old light finds rest in your gaze

Old light finds rest in your gaze

Comfort in words reigns all in this night


High enough to bring us down

Long enough to stop us in our tracks

We fight against

Cold enough to bring us up

Not wise enough to make us fall back in

We'll find another time


You break up. Ask me to leave you  

I cannot hold on

Old enough to find this soul again

I wrote down

You were here Erasing us

We were falling faster than the clocks

Hiding in the light 


I cannot lie for you

Shouldn't I go with you, write the message for you


You seem to me to run away

Finding love a hesitation

I care for you

Everything we were fighting for

Hiding on the border of you


Impatiently

I waited for you

Impatiently

I waited for you

Impatiently

I waited for you

 

We Are Only Human (Is that a good enough excuse?)

I love all the silence that surrounds us right now

I love all the mess we made all around us right now


We are only human

We are only human

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?


I love all the complications that have haunted us through these years

We came close to coming close but we lost it all in this mess that surrounds us 


We are only human

We are only human

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

Is that a good enough excuse?

 

Ça Nous Sauve De Rien

Can't lie about the world if it's for sale

I hate loving you in silence

But I'll wait till you can handle the noise

I will return the ...

I will return what you begun

I warm to it

Your violence saves us

It saves us 

...

...

I will take back ...

I will take back what once was mine


I warm to it

Your violence saves us
I warm to it

Your violence saves us

It saves us from nothing

Fucked up, emotionally a mess

I just keep coming back

...

But I keep on coming back


I warm to it

Your violence saves us

I was warned of it

Your silence kills us

Turns us into nothing

 

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